Letter to Brooklynn from Mommy - December 18, 2007

Dear Brooklynn,

On this day last year I found out I was pregnant with you. I still remember it like it was yesterday. I was extremely happy and scared all at the same time. I couldn't really wrap my mind around the concept of being your mother. From that day on I've prayed for your safety. Carrying you was an amazing experience. Feeling you inside of me was something I will always cherish and never forget. I actually miss it a lot. I miss being the only person able to feel and protect you. I guess that's the selfishness in me. Don't get me wrong I love sharing you with everyone else. The world is a better place because you are here. It's like the sun is always shining. I'd always heard you'll never know how it feels to love a child until you have one and now I completely understand that. It's a love so deep that it makes you feel like your heart is going to explode. I sometimes tear up just thinking about how much I love you.

Yesterday, you turned 4 months old. I really can't believe you've been here for 4 months already. You've changed so much in the last 4 months. You are such a happy little girl. You love to play and laugh. You've starting letting out a full blown laugh and not just a smile. You love kisses. Sometimes you'll grab my face with both hands and I just shower you with kisses. You still love to suck on things. Sometimes you'll get my chin, shoulder, neck or face. I just laugh because you crack me up. You love to stand so I think Santa is going to bring you a walker for Christmas. Your little legs are so strong. You are starting to get to the stage where you know who you like and who you don't. When you don't you sure let them know. You are also a funny acting little girl. When you don't feel like being bothered you let them know that too. I think you get that from Mommy. You really don't cry much. You'll whine a little every now and then just to get some attention or when you're sleepy. I really don't let you get to a full cry if I can help it. Granny says there is nothing wrong with you crying and I know that but I just don't do it. Your hair is growing. Aunt Cindy does your hair every day. She's determined to make it grow. I came home the other day and you actually had about 8 little plaits with barrettes. It was too cute! As much as I wanted you to look like me I have to admit that you look your Daddy. Oh well...I often hear that babies change as they get older so maybe you'll look like me in a few years.

I've started giving you some solid foods. So far you've eaten rice cereal, bananas and sweet potatoes. You seem to LOVE them all. I think some people think I'm crazy for wanting to make your baby food. I just want what's best for you. I actually enjoy making your food. Hopefully, I'll be able to keep it up. You've grown so much in the past 4 months but mostly in the past 2 months. We are now buying 9-12 month clothes. I think you are going to be short like me. You hate tummy time and will put your face down in the blanket or whine when I leave you on your belly for too long. You don't mind laying on your back for a little while though. You haven't rolled over yet but I'm waiting and I can't say patiently. You are meeting all of your milestones and I just know you are going to be a genius. I think you are teething. We'll see. I think if I see a tooth pop up I'll probably cry. I don't want you to grow up too fast. You love to suck on anything furry or cloth. We like to say you are going to get fur balls.

Your first Christmas will be here before you know it. I'm so excited. I know you are too young to understand anything about Christmas right now but that's ok. We'll take lots of pictures so that we'll always have pics of that day. Aunt Vonnie just can't stop buying you gifts. Your family loves you so much little girl.

I'm already planning your first birthday. I know you are only 4 months old but there are some things you'll soon learn about me. I don't like doing things at the last minute and I love planning. It's always easier when you can take your time and do things. Well, your first birthday will be a Circus/Carnival theme. I know...your Mommy is crazy. You'll also start taking swim classes in the spring. I just giggle when I think of seeing you in a swim suit. Those other babies better watch out.

Brooklynn I can ramble on and on about you for days. It's funny because I never understood people that could talk and talk about their children. I used to say they needed a life. Well, now I understand because you are my life.

I love you doll baby